My Words are Virga

I flit between various freebie writing apps to do my writing on this here blog.  I suspect that it lends to my recent bout of half-assery, but may increase the likelihood I’ll write.  Increase it because I have more toys to play with.  The trouble is that there are part I like about each but none I like fully enough to employ indefinitely.  Today I’ve lighted on Celtx.

An obscure search recently landed some floundering soul on the beaches of 1000 Days.  He or she wanted to find a ‘sentence for the word depatic’.  Google is aware of only three instances on the whole web that can potentially fulfill such a request.  1000 Days is at the top of the list.  Too bad for the intrepid searcher that I made up a fantastical context–and no true meaning–for the real world word.  It’s a dumb search.  Are there many words you can search for on the web that are not in sentences?

There are two posts that use the word depatic.  One is an edit of the other so no need to read both.  Reading over the post reminded me when I found this daily writing effort  more effortless.  More free.  Thanks for reminding me.

For the searcher wondering ‘what is rain called that never hits the’ [ground] I’d like to give another bit of thanks.  It’s been a long time since I recalled learning and using that word.

Day 349

Drop In The Line

I thought I’d work my way into this thing again.  Getting over a hump of this magnitude is a little tough.  Imagine skipping Mass for most of your college life.  Then imagine trying to get up one Sunday morning after graduation and drag your ass to church again when all you want to do is sleep late.  You can easily praise Him with biscuits and gravy at brunch rather than the Eucharist at 8:44.  Today, writing feels like that.

Worse, tomorrow, trying to write is going to feel like the next Sunday when you weasel out of the ecclesiastical trip on the grounds that you don’t want to over do your renewed zest for religion lest you return to your collegiately imposed heathenistic ways.

Or imagine an air-conditioned pick-up and a humid South Texas parking lot.  The brightness outside a theater after a matinée.  Someone requesting, “Smell this.”  Then shoving a carton of milk toward you.  Worse, “Taste this.”.

At first your return writing is a little mechanical.  Little more than a proper arranging of words on a page then capping them every so often with a period.  Maybe even less, a mere stretch of the fingers across the keyboard.  All uninspiring; all easily ignored well before even your most dedicated of readers makes it four paragraphs in.  That’s fine.  You’re actually searching for the habit, the pattern, the rote familiarity of I before E (except after C).  Casting for creativity or color too soon stirs gentle waters and those shiny fish dart for the coverage among the roots and shadows.

Just drop in the line.  Just watch the bobber.  Just repeat.

Day 321

Prelude to the Monowheel

I’m not too proud of the last day’s effort. I’ve also not been in the mood. Early on I would muddled through, but these past many weeks I’ve given up, given in, or plain not given a shit. I’ve moved on.

Not altogether. Not for good. Just at that time I’ve moved on. A variety of uninteresting things conspired lately to make that easier for me. I let them.

The first object I meant to paint with words here goes untouched. Not a post, not a sentence, not an allusion, not a word exists to suggest I ever held the idea. I keep the object hidden from view uninked untyped so I don’t mar the object and so that you don’t read my marring.

Protecting the object makes sense. Leaving it unintroduced allows me to write it when I finally feel up to the task. Till when I finally feel good enough to paint it well with the words of an experienced writer. Except one thousand days never meant to be about safety or keeping any topic untouched. What I’m doing here meant to uncork a new bottle of interesting each day, swig it down, then move on. Why would one vintage remain unopened for so long?

Some topics reside in my thoughts as hybrids between feelings and pictures. A picture I can translate into a scene. Same with a snip of dialogue. Or even a name. These hybrids—there are more than the one at hand—trip me up because they are potent seeds. Special seeds unlimited to a single plant. Seeds meant to grow a whole forest or glade or garden or patch, but not just one simple thing. I’d rather not waste them.

Which is dumb.

I’m wasting them now by hording them.

But I’m wasting quite a few. Each one of the half-stories, scenes, or paragraphs here that trail off after a flourish of writing are the same as these hybrids. They just got further along before I recognized their potential and shutdown to protect them from my stubby clumsy words.

Lately and long ago I read that writing is about taking risks. I don’t know what that means. Using big words? Using strange tenses? Atypical persons? Risque topics? Swear words when you know you Mom is reading? Writing humor when you know you’re not funny? Romance when you’re satisfied? Writing about one thing instead of one thousand?

Anyway.

I’ll drag these precious hybrids into the light. Tear them up or tear them down. Maybe that’s a risk. Maybe it’ll be worth taking.